IN THE LAST FEW WEEKS, I HAD THE HONOR OF BEING AN "IN OUR OWN VOICE"(IOOV) SPEAKER FOR NAMI AT TWO BEHAVIORAL HEALTH IN-PATIENT HOSPITALS IN DENVER. IT CERTAINLY BROUGHT BACK MEMORIES OF MY HOSPITALIZATIONS.
The patients, for the most part, were engaging and polite. The committee in my head kept negotiating the conflict of wanting to help those in the hospital and mentally escaping from my feelings of fear that there is no guarantee I would not return. The facilities at both Porter Hospital and Health One APPEARED safe, clean and the staff seemed professional. However, I needed to grab my toolbox, to ease any anxiety so I could give the best possible presentation.
When I came home I began to have flashbacks and some nightmares of the journey from psychosis to recovery. With your permission, I found a video that Dennis Perez edited during my 2nd break. It was during the time of Zinnternet, Months before my final hospitalization. He did a terrific job of capturing the emotion, I wanted to share this in the hopes it could give insight into his perception of the world of mania.
Every week I hope to upload a short video of my journey and write about it as promised. Please let me know if you like this format and offer any feedback. The one question I have for you all, "IS RECOVERY FOR EVERYONE and can WE fully RECOVER"?