I have come to the realization the more intense my mania became the less concerned I was about anyone else. Interestingly, most people were drawn into my manic energy and became increasingly blinded by their own egos or underlying greed as my mood grew in intensity.
I am learning through the process of recovery the difference between actual concern for my well-being and those who are blinded by their agendas. It astonishes me how people would actually encourage or help trigger my episodes. During the height of my psychosis people actually still believed in my grandiose ideas. In the future I will share with you some of these moments as they unfolded on organic video.
Watch as Larry Zarsky, a licensing agent and I discuss my meeting with Ice T, (The actor and rapper) and videographer Ariel Roubinov discusses his perception of others reactions to my mania.